Talk to me. I am a very talkative person before. I always tell stories. Lately, I tend to keep it to myself. But I think it is bad for my health and my mind.
Well, maybe one reason also is that I do not have a friend to talk to these days. Yes, a real friend who I know would listen to me. A friend who knows that I would obsessed about things until I get tired, then I would be able to finally stop and forget about it. You know, I observed that I have to talk about my problem to someone and gets his or her opinion about it. Yes, I am seeking comfort and once I am satisfied with what that person I am talking to will say, then I will have peace. Crazy, huh!
I have friends. They are just a few though. It is hard to trust anyone these days, you know. Your friend may be your friend but he or she could also be a friend to your enemy. Another thing, I really do not like to bother my friends because they also have their own problems that for all I know might just be bigger than what I am having right now.
Well, what is bothering me? I am just insecure about things. I fear that I might lose my job anytime or I might lose a lovedone anytime. I am also insecure about my position in the society. You know, all of my batch mates are doing well in life. Yeah, I saw in Facebook and Friendster. That makes me more depressed. Well, I am happy for them and sad for myself. Discontented? Oh, I hope my husband will not be able to read this. Yes, I am discontented. But not with him. I am discontented with myself. I feel that I could have done better in the past years. Now, I know, time is GOLD, eh.
Enough of my ranting. I should clear my mind of any worries. God actually gave me all the answers already. I have to TRUST him. Kayo na po ang bahala, Lord.