I really do not feel well today. I have coughs and colds. Maybe it is because of the tiring days. You know,the non-stop cleaning of the house and washing of clothes. I really feel exhausted. Then, there is also some pressure at work. I came to a decision though. It is not popular for everyone but most people agreed with it. The question is that, did I agree with it? Ironic, huh! Someone close to me somehow hurt me with her opinion but I respect it and I understand her.
What I really want? I want to quit my job and stay home. But, I could not afford to. There are people who are even richer or have more money than I do who are saying that they need a job, what more the poor me… But, how important is material possession?
The recent typhoon really has a big effect on me. I just do not have someone to talk to about it. All the people around me have their own problems. I know that I could depend on them but I do not want to bother them. So, whoever is reading this, thank you that I could share this with you.
I want to stay home and be with my family. We could live simply. We could still eat three times a day, I guess… What will I lose? No more new clothes and shoes? No more trip to the malls? Maybe no more subscriptions to any form of media? What about my child’s future? What future? We could not really predict the future or even create it because God has prepared it already for us.
My husband could not understand me whenever I tell him that I want to quit my job. The first step supposedly was to transfer to another department where it is less stressful. He contradicted and advised me to stay put where I am because it is more stable there… He might be right. I prayed for my decision with regards to my job and I received some signs… and moreover, the biggest sign is in front of me, my husband. How I could live without his support? Maybe I will just try to talk my plans unto him and let him understand me slowly and eventually he will agree with me…
What do I feel now? What will be my next move? My friends said that maybe we could just plan to leave our present posts by next year or maybe transfer to another company…
What do I really want to do? STAY HOME and BE WITH MY FAMILY.
